Drowning (Poem)

Drowning

 

I feel like I’m drowning

Like the waves are overpowering

Lost

Confused

Scared

Frightened

 

“Don’t let fear rule you”

But what if all you have is fear?

All that you can rely on

All that remains at the end of the day

Is the endless depth

That sucks you in

 

Believe

Believe in what?

That with some work things will get better?

Believe in trust?

Faith?

 

I hold onto faith

But it’s not enough

It’s never enough

“Faith without works is dead”

 

Where’s the works?

A bleeding whisper of a promise

Floating away on the wind

Trying

Pretending

To mean something

Anything?

 

No

 

It’s not enough

 

The burns and bruises haven’t faded

They never faded

Will never fade

 

I can’t see through the smoke

To the fire

Is it there?

Is it done?

 

Will anyone find me?

Will anyone help me?

 

The tears turn into a river

River becomes a sea

A tsunami wave

 

And I’m pulled  under